寂寞

Today feeling so down again =(
morning wake up SMS her no reply.....
call her only realise she off the phone d....
wait until she reply i almost wan cry d....

After that played the piano....
1st time in my life i play piano until cry....
"My Heart Will Go On".....
Such a nice song but i played like shit....
Keep thinking about her when i'm playing it....

Lunch time follow my parents go buy things in Queensbay....
walk past Living Cabin....
saw the same bear like in Tesco that i wanted to buy for her....
cry again :'(
dunno whether she will still accept it if i buy it now....

Come back home le....
nothing to do again....
cry again pulak....
1st time feel so lonely and down....
1st time that i realised i need her so badly....

Just want to write all this to tell her that i really need her...
Just want to be given another chance to tell her that i luv her...
Just want to have her back by my side again...
:'(