=(

I don't know why
you are leaving me so helpless
for the first time
i am so in love
i'm trying to fight this feeling
but i can't
i just....love you
hope you understand
everything i do
is just for you now
i have lost my direction of life
i need u back
i love you :'(

Terrified

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only



I'm terrified, really terrified =(

Pekchek

Since last time update blog until now....
every day pekchek >.<

That day in KLIA lounge,
use the computer there until so syiok,
suddenly internet session time out,
geram nia >.<
when finally can use,
she off9 d =(

When sit plane to Rome,
dunno why i so brave go ask the air hostess whether plane got WiFi or not,
she look at me as though i'm an alien ==
pekchek 12 hours in plane again >.<

When reach Rome in morning,
whole day walk walk walk,
every day like run marathon in Italy >.<
at night reach hotel go lobby ask,
no WiFi =(
nearly wan cry d :'(

Next day go hotel in Florence,
same thing =(

After that go Venice,
the hotel so good >.<
free WiFi for 24 hours,
manazai cant log in facebook,
go see her blog wan comment,
type the comment so longggg...
15 mins juz to type it,
when press the "Post Comment" button,
nearly pengsan >.<

Go Milan even worse mood =(
miss her until can go crazy d =(
tears again :'(
hate it >.<

Wait until come back Penang,
rush home on my hp,
call her,
she off phone d,
she in camp d,
aiz =(
miss her=(

2day very tired d,
din sleep 23 hours d,
2moro write longer for u,
write more about Italy,
wait u come back from camp hope u will read,
now so lonely,
juz wan to tel u,
i love u ♥

For u =)

OMG i siao liao....writing blog in airport lounge...juz for her =)
Duno wad to write so write about today...
Today morning chat with her so long....
still can't belive she ponteng school juz to teman me...XD

After that afternoon 3pm go airport ler...
Din get chat with her ler....
nid wait until next monday =(
when sit plane keep thinking about her....
wan cry again ><"

Reach KLIA airport le...
go airport lounge....
straight run to the computer...
open MSN...
yes she online!! =))

Chatting with her now...
later sit plane go Italy le...
duno when next time can chat with her....
juz wan tel her...

I love u <3

bye=)

This is my last post before i go to Italy for a week....
and i'm writing this just for you before i go...
actually dun feel like going pun...
because i'm going to miss you so bad....
scared i'm going to cry in the plane...
dunno how i'm going to pass the next week without talking to you....
without listening to your voice....
without looking at the messages you send me....
hate this sad feeling =(
but looking forward to the time when i come back....
really hope you will come back to my side....
and we can spend every moment of our life together again....
because you are the only reason i'm still around...
you are my life and soul...
i wanna spend every moment of my life with you....

I love you =)

寂寞

Today feeling so down again =(
morning wake up SMS her no reply.....
call her only realise she off the phone d....
wait until she reply i almost wan cry d....

After that played the piano....
1st time in my life i play piano until cry....
"My Heart Will Go On".....
Such a nice song but i played like shit....
Keep thinking about her when i'm playing it....

Lunch time follow my parents go buy things in Queensbay....
walk past Living Cabin....
saw the same bear like in Tesco that i wanted to buy for her....
cry again :'(
dunno whether she will still accept it if i buy it now....

Come back home le....
nothing to do again....
cry again pulak....
1st time feel so lonely and down....
1st time that i realised i need her so badly....

Just want to write all this to tell her that i really need her...
Just want to be given another chance to tell her that i luv her...
Just want to have her back by my side again...
:'(

i.miss.u

Hope u started reading this =)
Cause you are the only reason i started writing this blog....
And everything i write here is also juz about you and me...
Sad you are no longer mine...
And my tears start rolling down as i continue writing...
I miss you :'(